Liars On Your Hands.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

♥ 11:01 PM

why all these heartaches?

so much of turmoil.

just chuck it, burn it;

& say what you need to say.

or maybe there's nothing to say at all :/

i swear i'm going to be super fat & ugly(then i alrdy am!) by the end of the A's luh. it seems like i'm eating everything at anytime.

but ohyes, my fasting month excited me cause i might lose weight in the process BUT, its halted for abt 1 week or so due to the consequence of being born a girl. and to the people out there who have absolutely no idea wht goes on in a muslim culture & stuff, well you know tht 'time of the month' when girls go all highly-emotional, become super sensitive & have bad mood-swings? actually when they get 'it' during the fasting month, they are not allowed to fast. interesting eh? HAHAHA. so good, we learn something new, everyday (:

and so i'm entitled to eat during the normal daily eating hours BUT in a school filled with other fasting kids and also other muslim kids in your class, its hard to chew on to anything without feeling alittle guilty & so i had to resort to pleading my friends to buy me food & secretly sneak away to a corner & stuff the foood in. trust me, it aint a fun thing to do & so i only do it when i really become super hungry. HAHAHAH.

oh & btw, sch hasnt been fun at all since it restarted. bad results and more 'lectures' from concerned teachers and not forgetting the principal & panic to search for consultation timeslots arent a big whole pool of joy. the stress & wake-up calls are pushing thru & only the toughest would be able to keep up without collapsing & believe me, i aint tht strong. but there's no time to stop & waste away our lives in emotional trauma including all the drama, no matter how tempting it may be. & i'm learning, trying to keep up & boy its hard but hey, nobody said A's was going to be a breeze so wish me luck for survival.

and this post was meant to just relieve myself & now i've to start doing maths, yes MATHS work which i promised to do by tutorial so as to not disappoint my tutor anymore.

oh and not forgetting another problem tht just happened to pop by in my life:

the attack of the swollen, puffy red eye.

yes, it's painful & i can barely stare at anything for more than half an hour BUT, i think My god is testing me and when you're faced with a challenge you just have to press on i guess. although with ALOT of whinings accompanying it too. HA. & check out the picture i tried to take of it. not a goood shot but i was trying to capture it's swollen-ness :/ although it's red-ness is not clearly seeen.

ohgosh, these pictures look HORRIBLE luh. HAHAHA. my apologies but hey if you spot me in school then you can come closer and stare at my eye IF it doesnt get better by tmrw cos i think i need sleep to let it like heal but considering the heaps or work to do, sleep isnt something i can think about now. so byeeeeeess.

when you let your heart win.