Liars On Your Hands.

Monday, September 15, 2008

♥ 12:12 AM

you give me something.
that makes me scared alright.
this could be nothing.
but i'm willing to give it a try.
(or not?)

ugh ugh ugh, i've officially wasted my weekend away. someone just shoot me, seriously. i need to slap myself and get on track, but here i am blogging away like my whole life depended on this (which mind you, it doesnt. HAHA). wells, anyway, i'm super glad for certain people in my life who are keeping me sane at the moment or like stopping me from doing anything drastic. they 'crack' me up like crazy & i'm so thankful for them luh. conversations with them are hilarious.

for example:

ME: ughh fine. trust her. see if i care. trust ALL the people in the world who will cheat you eventually BUT dont believe the one person who wouldnt cheat you in the end. tskkk you. HAHA (:

MY CRAZY CUCKOO: yea, i like to be cheated. its gives joy to the cheater and i like to make people happy. WOOT!~ :)

HAHAHA. like super hilarious rightz. i swear i was laughing to my computer screen & ppl would have thought i'd gone mad. HA. he really cracks me up something and to him: "no i'm not a nut, just cause i cracked!". HAHA. i love him luh. & i swear i dont wanna lose him cos he seriously makes me laugh like crazy & keeps me happy (most of the time. HA) goshness. and our conversation was truly based on some joke tht we were talking abt. it's not meant for anyone in particular (: heh.

well anws, there's alot been going on in my mind lately & to blog it all done would probably take a super long time & i've still got an RJC paper to do for gp tutorial tmrw which i have only a few hours left to finish since its now, 1:04 AM. gosh rightzzzz? and by the way, my fasting month re-starts for me from today onwards so i might be super drained in school from this week onwards which means that pls handle me with care. HA, tht sounds retarded but yeah, it goes out to some of my crazy friends like:

ANDREW, who was trying so hard to disturb me tht time & forced me to become thirsty so tht he could see whether i would be influenced to drink some water. EVIL RIGHTZZZ? stupid andrew. you sinner. HAHAHAHA. kidding luh. i'd still love you cos i'm nice (: and pls get well soon you sick person! heh.

okay then, bye all & to the people taking A's study hard cos we dont have much time left :/

when you let your heart win.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

♥ 11:01 PM

why all these heartaches?

so much of turmoil.

just chuck it, burn it;

& say what you need to say.

or maybe there's nothing to say at all :/

i swear i'm going to be super fat & ugly(then i alrdy am!) by the end of the A's luh. it seems like i'm eating everything at anytime.

but ohyes, my fasting month excited me cause i might lose weight in the process BUT, its halted for abt 1 week or so due to the consequence of being born a girl. and to the people out there who have absolutely no idea wht goes on in a muslim culture & stuff, well you know tht 'time of the month' when girls go all highly-emotional, become super sensitive & have bad mood-swings? actually when they get 'it' during the fasting month, they are not allowed to fast. interesting eh? HAHAHA. so good, we learn something new, everyday (:

and so i'm entitled to eat during the normal daily eating hours BUT in a school filled with other fasting kids and also other muslim kids in your class, its hard to chew on to anything without feeling alittle guilty & so i had to resort to pleading my friends to buy me food & secretly sneak away to a corner & stuff the foood in. trust me, it aint a fun thing to do & so i only do it when i really become super hungry. HAHAHAH.

oh & btw, sch hasnt been fun at all since it restarted. bad results and more 'lectures' from concerned teachers and not forgetting the principal & panic to search for consultation timeslots arent a big whole pool of joy. the stress & wake-up calls are pushing thru & only the toughest would be able to keep up without collapsing & believe me, i aint tht strong. but there's no time to stop & waste away our lives in emotional trauma including all the drama, no matter how tempting it may be. & i'm learning, trying to keep up & boy its hard but hey, nobody said A's was going to be a breeze so wish me luck for survival.

and this post was meant to just relieve myself & now i've to start doing maths, yes MATHS work which i promised to do by tutorial so as to not disappoint my tutor anymore.

oh and not forgetting another problem tht just happened to pop by in my life:

the attack of the swollen, puffy red eye.

yes, it's painful & i can barely stare at anything for more than half an hour BUT, i think My god is testing me and when you're faced with a challenge you just have to press on i guess. although with ALOT of whinings accompanying it too. HA. & check out the picture i tried to take of it. not a goood shot but i was trying to capture it's swollen-ness :/ although it's red-ness is not clearly seeen.

ohgosh, these pictures look HORRIBLE luh. HAHAHA. my apologies but hey if you spot me in school then you can come closer and stare at my eye IF it doesnt get better by tmrw cos i think i need sleep to let it like heal but considering the heaps or work to do, sleep isnt something i can think about now. so byeeeeeess.

when you let your heart win.