Liars On Your Hands.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

♥ 3:06 AM

one of the hardest things to do in life is, to trust.

firstly,

this part of my post is fully dedicated to my 'all-star' & talented bestfriend,

MR K.HARAVIN

who although, did kind of force me or rather BRIBE me to post about him,

i still would have wrote about him on my own accord as i am definitely SUPER PROUD of him (:

it seems, our school soccer teacher has chosen HIM, along with 2 others to head on to BEIJING at the end of the year to play soccer, along with alot of other chosen players from other schools and stuff. it definitely is a great honour and a wonderful opportunity for him & i'm sure he'll do his best there (: heh.

HAPPY NOW? haha.

but yeah, i love him loads so i'm truely happy for him & honestly would miss him when i graduate from SRJC :/

well on to other things,
i've been watching pick-me-up movies lately as well movies that i've been wanting to catch in a pretty long time. although, the well known fact is that i'm having the life-threatening PRELIMSSS. infact, i haven't exactly got the whole, 'prelims are a gauge for how you'll do in your A's thing' right into my head. thats why, i spent my. 2 whole days of study break (plus the day before tht, on which i chose to stay at home cos of my cold) watching OLYMPICS on the teevee or recouping sleep by just slogging away. and mind me, olympics has been a GREAT distraction thats been hard to get over. i mean have you watched it? the athletes are so determined to win at all cost and most of them are pretty goodlooking. HAHA. and omg, my favourite: the RHYTHMIC GYMNASTICS is absolutely stunning. the girls are ohmygosh. hahahahaha. its like looks & elegance all in one (:

ohwells, other than that, i refuse to talk abt my papers other than they all equate to badddd with a capital B. HA. except my econs paper 1 in which i only got to read my case studies extract. yes people, for the FIRST EVER time in my life i actually left the hall and didn't complete my paper. well the thing is, i skipped my breakfast, lunch & dinner the day before & on the day of the paper i skipped breakfast cos i didnt want to be late to sch. plus i drank my favourite drink: ice lemon teaaa on an empty stomach :/ oh, before you'll run to conclusions, i didn't do it intentionally cos the day before i woke up late and i ate after my paper cos we had a private celebration for Steph's birthday with Lyd & Jo so i wasn't hungry for dinner. that was why i didn't eat much. so yeah, because of all of these, a few minutes before the paper started my gastric pains came back & this time is was the worst-case kind. it was the one where it felt like your stomach was eating itself up inside :/ let me tell you, it aint a GOOOD FEEELING ): ha.

and i tried to bear with the pain when i entered the hall to do the paper but while i was highlighting the extract, i really couldnt take it so i raised my hand and the teacher brought me out. and my, the teachers were rather nice and caring. they even offered me bread & milk (: HAH. so yeah, signed early leave form and daddy picked me up to go to the docs. oh oh, and thanks to dearest jerome who saw me waiting pitifully, in pain at the general office for my daddy to come fetch me, and actually bought me a packet of sweets to eat. hahaha. so sweet & thoughtful. thank you jerome! (: well then my family doc thought i was 'dieting' but she gave me med and after eating them, it did make my tummy feel wierd. like little people walking all over in my tummy :// HAHAHHA. super funnny feeling. heh. well other than that, my week was pretty bland and all the papers were suffocating. & even though hist was the only paper i read thru my books and stuff for, the chapters i read thru didn't come out so all my papers were hopeless. but i'm hoping i'll revise properly this weekend so that i can do manageably well for my papers on tues & wed.
and then, it'll be my Special day on thurs (:
honestly, i'm anxious & hopefully the party goes on as well as its planned. i'm still in the midst of making the invitations though.

oh and today, i was out shopping for my one of my birthday gift. heh. someone wanted to buy it for me early and i was definitely touched. i was pretty high till i saw something though. talk abt bad luck or how L would put it, My GOD is definitely telling me something and it's up to me to take the hint or just never learn from mistakes. so i've been thinking. ALOT. and i need to learn & change & i'm going to try, no matter how hard it'll be. heh and my dearest cheena man, BENNNN told me to quickly get over it so i will okay. i'm just a little slow at these things. BUT thanks for being there for me & saying that you'll always listen to me if i need someone to talk to. hahahaha. love you loads (:

okays, i need to be off to get some sleep cos i've got loads to do tmrw. byes!

when you let your heart win.