Liars On Your Hands.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

♥ 10:55 PM

take for granted, how much i care.

i wonder.

if it was all that easy for you to push aside the feelings.

or maybe you didnt have any at all?

the week's ending tmrw.

it's pretty fast aint it.

hahah.

and i can't even remember whether anything productive was accomplished this week.

everyday feels like a routine thing where all i remember is just going to school, managing thru lessons, staying back to study(somedays) & then coming home, hoping to do more work but ending up falling asleep & then the cycle starts again :/

boooos.

and before i knew it, friday's here already.

gosh, the years passing pretty damn fast.

anyway, today had econs extra lesson from 5 to 6.

then waited for faiz & raihan & the clique went to eat 'tau-hway'(beancurd!).

hahaha.

we just happen to have sudden cravings.

then came back school to study with timothy and darian.

it was okay la.

atleast i managed to do my hist timed practice which has been overdue for ages.

heh (:

then left with mingling for home after that.

oh and this is what our gp teacher has deduced about my class:

teacher: why is it that the class seems racially divided. like the four malay girls always sit together and the two indian boys (elvin & navin) always sit together. you'll should mix with other races.

my class: we do mix with each other. we're closer than you think yknow. and just because we don't sit with each other in class doesn't mean we're not close! ( the WHOLE class agrees to this)

teacher: well i hope that is the case cause it really looks like there is a racial divide. oh except for sharifa who's the only indian girl who sits with EVERYONE in class (:

(WHOLE CLASS LAUGHS, including me!)

HAHAHAHAH.

hopefully she meant it in a good way.

i really hope i'm not too friendly or something.

atleast not to the extent where it gives someone a bad impression of me or makes them annoyed :/

well, i don't mean no harm.

i'm just like that.

gosh.

oh & i suddenly realised how certain people have matured & some just stay their childish self.

yeah.

i've been doing alot of thinking.

thinking about thinking (like how our gp teacher said).

i can't say that it has changed me alot, cause i'm pretty much the same.

but it's increased my realizations.

it's made me want to question certain things further.

things like, how am i supposed to offer my comfort/ words of advice if i don't apply them myself?

how am i supposed to emphasize the importance of confidence when i aint that confident of myself?

but yet, i still do.

and the outcomes from my friends are the reasons as to why i try my best to be there for anyone who seeks help/advice from me.

besides, i'm a strong believer of not letting anyone down.

ohwells, i've got loads of work piling up.

luckily the weekends nearing & next week, there's a LONG weekend!

HAHAHA.

we have COLLEGE DAY & SR MUSICAL at RP.

which gives us a day to let loose, dress up & have loads of fun.

woah.

hopefully hara & pira they all can join the j2 show timing instead of the j1 one.

it'll be sooo much more fun with them around (:

heh.

and i can't wait to go shopping for clothes with my friends for that day.

finally something to look forward too.

okay, i'm off to do work.

got what i would have wanted.

but it doesn't mean anything.

i know it aint a big deal, this time.

cause there's no significance.

although i teared.

it's just my unstable emotions.

something that i've been struggling to push aside.

& i'm managing, though it's hard.

it's easy for you though, right?

cause there weren't much to begin with.

it's just me now.

just me, chasing pavements.

when you let your heart win.