Liars On Your Hands.

Monday, April 14, 2008

♥ 1:00 PM

made friends with the extroverts & fell for the Introvert.

gosh, its sunday already & tmrw there's school.
the weekend just went past like a whirlwind :/
ohwells, let me do a recap on the highlights of this week.

last sunday was PILLOWMAN!
it was great even though there was loads of morbid scences & swearing.
SHANE was the hott stuff although ADRIAN PANG was not pretty bad himself.
the rest of the cast was awesome too.
well written & well acted out.
after that went for dinner & pictures-taking with JO & LYD.
we did alot of stupid things and loads of fun.
it was a pity that steph & ter had to leave and couldn't come along ):
but nonetheless, we had a good time.
clarke quay is by far one of the GREATEST place to be at in the nighttime :D
(sorry can't put the pictures up cos stupid blogger is screwed up but i'll put it up pretty soon!)

schoolweek was so-so i think.
can't quite remember much things cause i think only the usual happened.
ohh but i did stay back almost everyday after school to study till nighttime.
yups.
i even managed to study one day with guanjie and another day i studied with these CRAZY 4 guys from 2S21!
HAHAHAH.
it was DARIAN(NERDboy), TIMOTHY(EVILguy), KAIFENG(EGONESS!), DANIAL(SILENTpsycho).
HEHEH.
i tell you it was one SUPER CRAZY nightstudy time.
and somehow or rather, i did manage to do work.
yeah, i know it's unbelievable but it's true.

hmm then there was this hilarious incident in econs class.

our teacher: for people that watch chinese/korean dramas, they only do it cause they love fairytale-like stories. where the guys bring you to a big open field or some big space then ask you to shout to vent out your frustrations or let out your feelings & emotions. they let you say "wei ser-more". (sorry my spelling is probably inaccurate but the meaning of it is supposed to be 'WHYY!', i think! hah.) and they say it along with you.
classmates: ( laugh along and agree to what she says!)
our teacher: besides ah, i think compared to all the races, chinese guys are the most GENTLE-EST ones. really! they say indian & malay guys can be violent and stuff so chinese are the best. besides, indian and malay guys cannot shout "WEI SER-MORRE!" with you.

HAHAHAHAHAH.
gosh, i was practically falling off my seat, laughing.
and yet, i couldn't help but agree to it by a great extent & relate to it.
ohhh and i learnt something else from a friend this week.
'everything's a gamble; it's up to your luck whether it works out or not'
his ever-so 'wise' words.
HAHAH.

and friday was INTERNATIONAL FRIENDSHIP DAY!
i went around school wishing EVERYBODY.
HAHAHAH.
i bet i made them feel loved.
heh (:
and we got back our PW results.
it was bummer really cos after all that searching for information, re-doing AGAIN & AGAIN or our powerpoint slides,documents and other stuff, i just got a C.
but somehow, after i read the comments and stuff i kind of guessed that i would get a C. but some of my classmates were pretty unprepared for their grade and they cried.
i couldn't help but feel bad so i had to comfort alot of people.
it made me feel alittle uneasy with myself cos there i was trying not to think abt it and be positive but arnd me people were weeping away.
but ohwells, i managed and then i met chuin sin and i did some catching up with her!
heh, it's been a long time since i talked to her too (:
nowadays there's rarely any time to just see someone & talk to them for long.
NO TIME AT ALL.
ohwells.

anyway, to people who are disappointed over their grades (especially YOU) :
don't worry about it okay.
like i said, sometimes things won't turn out like we expect them to.
no matter how hard or to what extent we go to just to make it the way we want them to be.
yet, we are not supposed to give up.
every failure given to us is just to make us STRONGER.
and make us want to work harder.
so yes, we're allowed to feel a tinge of disappointment but now, we must work super harder for the other subjects.
do super duper well for them so that the pw grade doesn't matter anymore.
and i'm sure you can do it.
yeah, i believe in you & i'll be behind you, no matter what(even if you push me away).
so don't give up & you'll have wonderful A-level grades next year.
and i'll be cheering/clapping for you really loudly cause i would love to see you happy.
jiayou! (:

so yeah, ystd i went for hair treatment & got my fringe cut.
it's like pretty short now and i look like i have bangs :/
(i would love to put the picture up but once again you have to blame blogger for being so sucky.)
so now i have no idea how i'm going to tie my hair up in school cause i think it might look pretty wierd ):
goshh.
well, today's post is sooooo plain with no pictures!
STUPID BLOGGER.
pfffftttt.
i think next week some of the ccas are going to start their NATIONALS.
wooohhhh.
hopefully they play their best and do well.
so GOODLUCK people.
esp SOCCER (guys&girls) & VOLLEYBALL (guy&girls) & NETBALL!
since most of my friends are in these ccas (:

oh and today i went for a family function.
and just as i was immersing myself in all the fun, laughter, jokes & teasing going on among my cousins, one of them just had to bring up something that changed my mood for awhile.

cousin: so sharifa, i heard you come home late from 'studying' all day at school. like 9 plus all.
me: yeah la. i study okay. i study with my friends.
cousin: friends or friend. somemore can go esplanade library to study all. didn't seem like you study with ALOT of friends. seemed like only one person. and you better know that place like raffles city, city hall and esplanade have alot of 'spies' and eyes watching you so you better pick someother places to go too.
me: i was studying la (shocked & trying to find something to say)
cousin: yeah, to study must sit so close and lean forward one ah.
(the rest of my cousins were laughing away & giving me shady smiles)
me: no la, i was really studying la. don't nonsense can.
then i came up with someother stupid stuff to say & change the topic.
and we ended up talking about one of my cousins chinese gf.
well, it's true when you say the people in singapore have diversified.
so many inter-racial stuff going on.
yet, why are there some people who are so queasy about it.
i mean, we're all just humans.
and thanks to my cousin, who had to remind me about you all over again.
one day, just one day was all that i needed to fall for you totally.

ohwells, it's about time i go and get some work done.
and tmrw it'll go back to routine, robotic week ALL over again.
and hopefully i get time during the week to blog again.

whats the point of waiting

for your name to come on the screen.

when i'm not allowed

or more like it's understoood

that i'm not supposed to speak first.

but yet, i msged you first again.

two time i think, this week.

yes, me and NOT you.

you're not even trying.

thinking about it,

i saw the similarities that day.

while you saw the differences.

my positivity & your negativity.

neutral.

yes, i said it that day & i'll say it again.

positive + negative = neutral.

we balance out each other.

if we BOTH just try.

i've done my part but what about you?

please don't walk away.

& just tell me you'll stay.

just one reassurance.

& i'll be there for you.

without disturbances.

when you let your heart win.