Liars On Your Hands.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

♥ 8:04 PM

Jealousy aint good, little girl.

so, push it aside like every other feeling.

woah, i haven't blogged for a pretty long time.

and things been rather hectic.

on top of that, my house is in a total mess due to the renovation that's going on.

three out of the four toilets are being renovated which means there's like dust/dirt/construction stuff EVERYWHERE.

since my toilet is in my room, there is dust on every part of my room, including my study table :/

(this is also one of the reasons why i'm studying in sch)

and and this is just the BEGINNING ):

after they do all the toilets, they'll be doing the room renovations!

this is all going to happen during and before my mid year exam week.

gosh gosh, i'm so dead.

i'll probably end up having to study anywhere else other than my house.

which means CHAOS since all my worksheets & stuff are spread around my study table at home.

sheeeshh.

anyway, i didn't go sch today.

i didn't feel too well & it's a pretty long day.

oh & there was A-level chem spa today.

so had to wish my friends thru msges.

ohwells, HOPE YOU DID YOUR BEST, PPL! (:

heh.

okay let me recap alittle.

saturday was spent fully in johore bahru.

went shopping with family cause it's been pretty long since we went there due to the traffic jam and stuff.

and i managed to buy loads of things that i really needed (:

sunday we had excursion with my sunday class.

learnt a few important things and managed to take some photos.

will try to upload them if they turn out nice (:

& then ystd was okay i guess.

the school day was short which was great.

i love mondays cause we always end early.

then studied in school with timothy,kaifeng,danial and darian joined us later.

it was pretty entertaining & i did get some work done.

but the sad part was that my bag broke.

yeah, depressing!

it was brand new actually.

i just bought it in jb.

and it was probably my fault cause i stuffed ALOT of things into it.

but still, i actually loved it & it just had to break.

fortunately my dad says there's a way to fix it.

so there's hope.

& i still HATE MY HAIR.

or rather, my fringe.

it sucks to the core & it refuses to grow quickly.

thus, i have to wait ever-so patiently ):

and withstand all the evil teasings from my guyfriends.

arghh.

during the weekends i did alot of reflecting.

especially in the long ride to jb on saturday.

what my bestfriend told me made me think about alot of things.

but what the heck.

just let me smile, cause i deserve to.

yeah, i do.

and school stuff is really becoming very hectic.

ystd, my gp teacher confiscated my phone cause i was msging guanjie, goodluck for the volleyball competition :/

and i felt so lost.

like my phone has become such a big part of me.

i know, i sound so hopeless & bimbotic but really.

gosh, it just felt so wierd.

and luckily she said she would return it to me when school ended which was only 2hrs away.

i actually teared infront of her.

she thought i was scared that my parents would find out but that was so not the case.

i just tear ALL THE TIME, for the simplest things.

it cannot be helped and people who are close to me would know that,

haha, i'm so weird.

gosh, she probably thought i'm mental or something.

heh (:

ohwells.

i need to go study for my econs test tmrw which i have absolutely no confidence in doing well since i'm so lost during lectures & tutorials.

i need help :/

but i think i need to help myself first.

so yeah, better be off.

i thought about it through.

whats the point?

that's what people keep telling me.

my friends even called you a jerk.

for what you're doing.

but i defended, cause i know what you're feeling.

oh wait, i THINK i do.

and its hard for me to give up.

i told myself after last year

that i'm so over this kind of pain.

i told myself, no distractions.

i told myself, not to fall for anyone.

cause i knew that if i did.

i'd fall pretty hard.

and guess what?

i fell hard for you, since that day.

& it's hard to get back up again.

when you let your heart win.