Liars On Your Hands.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

♥ 8:37 PM

you talked about opposites being a bad thing.
but i think that was what attracted me in the first place.
but what would i know, right?
i aint an expert and you sure don't make me feel like one.

FRIDAY:

STEP UP 2 with amira and the guys.
hara & pira couldn't come & shah left without watching the movie ):
the movie was okay but not as great as the first one.
though the lead actress had such a hot body.
and TYLER (channing tatum) was like WOAH. hahah (:
so after the movie ate lunch and then searched for my granny's present.
finally bought something and i left for my granny's house while the rest went to send amira off to her bbq.
i was too caught up on thinking how to get to my granny's house that i forgot to say 'bye' to the rest.
maybe what someone told me before is really accurate.
'sometimes i let my emotions dictate my actions too much & it get's in the way'.
anw, then went to celebrate my granny's birthday.
spent alot of time with the family & the guilt of not studying kept popping up in my mind.

SATURDAY:

went to school to study with steph, ml & nazi.
i went there quite late but managed to do some econs.
but we did listen to alot of songs and nazi was teaching steph and ml how to shuffle.
hahaha.
it was hilarious, trust me.
steph seemed like a bobble-head doll!
hahaha, gosh i love my classmates and their retarded-ness.
saw the soccer boys too & faiz was so amazed that i was in school studying.
heh.
and there was a wave today.
it was awkward but ughh, it had to be done.
atfirst steph asked me why there was no wave & i had no answer, i just shrugged.
but then i guess he did wave later on or maybe i was expecting him to, so he just accommodated it, like he always does.
whatever it is, i'm trying hard to push everything aside.
it's pretty darn hard, honestly.
i've realised, no matter how many letters i write, you'll never get the full thing.
you'll just confuse me with your replies & msges & all the contradictions.
so it's better to solve the problem this way.
ughh.
so then, after that went to vivo to eat, with ml.
we walked arnd that after that and saw this wedding fair thing.
there was a wedding dress fashion show and the models were ALL tall and skinny & extremely gorgeous.
even the guys looked great.
i was kinda jealous, looking at the wonderful dresses that they were wearing and how great they looked.
so i pulled myself away from there, reluctantly and got home but i didn't do any work cos i felt pretty awful and sick.
managed to bring myself out for dinner with my family after that.
then came back home & i fall asleep on the sofa :/
i think i've lost it cos i feel like my energy's drained.
i'm sleeping alot & i can't seem to get up no matter how hard i try.
maybe i need vitamins? ):

TODAY:

didn't go for religious class today cos i couldn't wake up.
yeah i know, i'm atrocious.
i told you i think i lack vitamins or something.
i did manage to drag myself out of bed at about 1 plus.
managed to do more econs then went to look at a house with my family.
my dad's still house-hunting cos he's thinking of moving, yups.
that was pretty much what had happened today.
now i'd have to go back to do more work & school week starts tomorrow.
hopefully i can survive the whole week :/
gosh, A-level year is extremely dreadful like how everyone said it would be.
but i'm positive.

yes i'm am, so you better don't think i'm not.

i'm sick of relating every song that i hear,

to you.

truth is, i miss you.

no matter how i try to deny it.

i miss msg-ing you & awaiting your replies.

but the thought of it ALL being fake

& how maybe you were just 'making up' the replies,

makes me feel super wierd & confused.

i don't know what to feel about you now.

even my idea of opposites attracting has been crushed,

by what you said.

when you let your heart win.