Liars On Your Hands.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

♥ 3:48 PM

hmm, didn't blog ystd cos i felt asleep immediately when i came home.
gosh i was so tired that i had to wake up in the morning to do my econs hw.
couldn't force myself to wake up at night.
and anw, ystd's plan didn't happen cos hara's grandmother got admitted in the hospital so he had to rush off.
so waiting arnd for them to end training was so pointless.
ohwells, atleast i managed to run the 10 rounds that we had to run for NETBALL.
me and lyd ran super slowly so our timing was so not accurate but it was superduper HOT at that time. we were practially dying.
so yeah, after running lyd waited with me till amira came.
talked with lyd about a certain matter.
she claimed that she didn't give me good advice but i think it helped me quite a bit.
although i told myself i'd forget about it all and push it aside, it was surely nice to have her explain some things to me and relieve some of the confusion.
HAHA.
well, i guess what she said might surely have been the case.
"experience is something you were lacking in alot, right?"
maybe that was one factor.
and another thing she said got me thinking too.
"maybe it was just for fun for you?"
and i guess i was pressing on too much.
guess my insecurities got in my way.
i should have just gone with the flow and not thought too much abt the situation and question your interest so much.
"it's probably why you got annoyed?"
okay, anyway, it was great talking to lyd.
made me realise how much i miss girl-clique talks.
wait, don't get me wrong.
i love my guy-friends like hara, pira, shah they all.
but i was from a girl school and i did have my girl-clique where we could share EVERYTHING and it was fun.
gosh, i miss them.
but i do love my sr friends.
especially amira and fifa and lyd, steph & ter.
yups, they keep me going on.
and i'm grateful for that. so yeah, then lyd left and amira and me tried to study while waiting for the soccer training to end. then we rushed to buy the cake and came back then realised hara left. ohwells, hopefully his grandma is well! yeah.

so the celebration was postponed to today.
during lunchtime we asked pira to bring hara down. got faiz to light the cake and we sang the birthday song in the canteen. it was only a few of us but could see that hara was happy! hahs. so yeah. nothing much else happened today except that we got our RESULTS. whoosh. there was not much surprises. for the amount of effort i put in, i deserved the marks i got. but i was surprised i managed to pass lit. they must have been lenient. so i've only passed lit and gp this time. i missed S for maths by 1 miserable mark and ofcourse for econs and hist is the 'not-surprising' U. gosh, i'm sure my parents are gonna be called down but atleast i prepared them first (:

oh and most teachers kept giving us 'speeches' today. and ms zeenat's one made a rather big iimpact on my class. she kept saying that we should take up the challenge of having "NO-LIFE" for the rest of the six months that were left. she said that we shouldn't bother abt what other people thought of us. and most imptly, we should work AS A CLASS. and i think whatever she said was quite true. in the end it's me that suffers or reaps the benefits of what i have done, right? so me and steph decided that we're going to try and keep to the no-life thing. try ah cos it's going to be rather hard. but atleast we're willing to try, right? (: heh. so yeah then the day ended late due to econs and lit star period. and i went off home after that. wooh! first time that i left home immediately after school. it kind of felt good. and while i was walking out of sch, me and fifa were talking abt how we need to stop slacking with our friends. so yeah, i'm glad that ALL my friends are realising it and no one get's left behind. gosh, i can't wait for 2A04 to appear at almost the top of all the lists of the exams cos i kind of felt jealous when i looked at the top classes. so many classes were improving but our class still at the average area. and i guess i have to put in my fair share of effort to help pull the class up too. so yeap, i'm going to work hard and try to resist ALL temptations. i hope i can do it.

yknow what i suddenly remembered?

you told me that you didn't have alot of close girl-friends.

& i remember saying i'd be one for sure & you nodded. so thats what i tried to be. but i guess i was being my too overly-friendly self. & look how it ended up. even to acknowledge you now,

i'm afraid :/

gosh, i seriously regret.

we shld have just stayed the way we were.

MY FAULT :(

when you let your heart win.