Liars On Your Hands.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

♥ 11:14 PM

just let me try, ok?

i'm frigggin sick again.
like OMG righttzz :/
i thought i was over the phase of being totally SUPER unwell & not being able to do any work at all & come to school but here we go again. hmm maybe i shld like make sure i dont hang arnd sick ppl too much. maybe i've lost my stron immune system & have become super weak which i totally blame myself for since i dont eat properly at the right times & thus the repercussions of it all, coming to me NOW when i shld be working the hardest in this quick-ending race to the finish line.

so yes, on to other things happening at the moment which are def the pre-A's mock exams tht are going on in our school. & yes, i'm as not fully geared or prepared as i shld be if i'm taking the A's so the outcome for the mocks tht i've taken so far have been hideous but i did learn some tips from the post-mortems tht the teachers did after we were done trying out the mock qns. i mean, i just need to organize my stuff, sit myself down for solid straight long hours, go through note & make my own notes, learn from the tips given & then i shld be good to take the A's, hopefully.

so yes, i'm gonna do it. and as you can seee i'm working on becoming MORE POSITIVE(in the aspect of my school wrk, since for everything else i'm SUPERDUPER positive!) so i will push myself & i'm def super glad tht i've got some wonderful friends who are pushing me along the way & trying to make sure i dont give up halfway. as well as my beloved cousin who's suffering along with me & makes me wanna not give up cos i shld work tgther with her so tht both of us can get thru the A's (:

oh & tdae was like 'sharifa-gets-bullied-the-most' day. timo & damian were bullying me like crazayyyy. & they kept humiliating me by exposing my ez-link card photo & ic photo to EVERYONE & ANYONE. & trust me when i say ANYONE cause even damian's outside-school friends who i barely met/talked to for like 5 minutes plus, managed to catch a glimpse of it & laughed at me. like WTH rightzz. they're EVILLLL i tell you. this is wht happens if u're born a VIRGO, who's meant to be gullible & nice & you end up trusting your stuff with ur friends who end up digging the cards out, taking pictures of it & sending it to ur other guyfriends who are like not even part of the whole thing. ugh ugh ugh. & worse still showing off to a million of your other friends who happen to be in the library too or in the place where you go for dinner. like OMGGGGGOSH. humiliating to the core luh. i tell you i could have died when they kept LAUGHING away at meee. on top of tht, timo & damian KNEW it was evil but kept on bullying me. rahhhhh. ONE DAY, when i decide to try & become evil, i shall get you'll back okay. i will TRY, for sure. HA!

oh anw, crazy cuckoo is being a sicko. HAHAHA & so he didnt come school tdae to take the econs mock. he's been super duper sick for the past few days but he claims he's recovered so we shall see tmrw if it's trueee. but anw, drink water luh you. it helps alot really. i mean i shld knw right since i've been super sick too. heh. takecare purrlease & yes, i do miss ur lame-ness alittle. NOTE THE ALITTLE. before you get a big-head. hahaha. but yeah, timo & damian have been compensating for you & i still get my extreme load of lameness from them so i'm fine! HAHAHA. but yes, they miss you loads toooo, so comeee back sch ok? (:

ok luh, i think i shld be off to bed and wake up to face another day of dreadful MOCKS. tmrws lit & h1 maths so wish me luck (:

P.S: to my dearest T who's been listening to ALL my whinings & nonsenses intently & just being there for me when i need you(most of the time!) & also, bothering to use ur precious time & spend it with me, well i'm truly grateful for all these & i feel honoured/touched tht i have a wonderful friend like you who always believes in me & helps me along the way, when i'm lost. so yes, THANKS YOU LOADS and def, i love you to like infinityy cos you make me happy & entertain me when i'm down. although u do show your HUGE EGO. okay kidding luh. not huge! hahahas. but yeah, u're one of the greatest guyfriend ever ok? dont wna lose you ever manzz. one & only purrlease. HAHAH. lovezz (:

when you let your heart win.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

♥ 1:27 AM

I'M WALKING AWAY.

from the troubles in my life;

to find a better day.

so just go on & spread those lies.

(cos i aint gonna live a lie like you.)

when you let your heart win.

Monday, September 15, 2008

♥ 12:12 AM

you give me something.
that makes me scared alright.
this could be nothing.
but i'm willing to give it a try.
(or not?)

ugh ugh ugh, i've officially wasted my weekend away. someone just shoot me, seriously. i need to slap myself and get on track, but here i am blogging away like my whole life depended on this (which mind you, it doesnt. HAHA). wells, anyway, i'm super glad for certain people in my life who are keeping me sane at the moment or like stopping me from doing anything drastic. they 'crack' me up like crazy & i'm so thankful for them luh. conversations with them are hilarious.

for example:

ME: ughh fine. trust her. see if i care. trust ALL the people in the world who will cheat you eventually BUT dont believe the one person who wouldnt cheat you in the end. tskkk you. HAHA (:

MY CRAZY CUCKOO: yea, i like to be cheated. its gives joy to the cheater and i like to make people happy. WOOT!~ :)

HAHAHA. like super hilarious rightz. i swear i was laughing to my computer screen & ppl would have thought i'd gone mad. HA. he really cracks me up something and to him: "no i'm not a nut, just cause i cracked!". HAHA. i love him luh. & i swear i dont wanna lose him cos he seriously makes me laugh like crazy & keeps me happy (most of the time. HA) goshness. and our conversation was truly based on some joke tht we were talking abt. it's not meant for anyone in particular (: heh.

well anws, there's alot been going on in my mind lately & to blog it all done would probably take a super long time & i've still got an RJC paper to do for gp tutorial tmrw which i have only a few hours left to finish since its now, 1:04 AM. gosh rightzzzz? and by the way, my fasting month re-starts for me from today onwards so i might be super drained in school from this week onwards which means that pls handle me with care. HA, tht sounds retarded but yeah, it goes out to some of my crazy friends like:

ANDREW, who was trying so hard to disturb me tht time & forced me to become thirsty so tht he could see whether i would be influenced to drink some water. EVIL RIGHTZZZ? stupid andrew. you sinner. HAHAHAHA. kidding luh. i'd still love you cos i'm nice (: and pls get well soon you sick person! heh.

okay then, bye all & to the people taking A's study hard cos we dont have much time left :/

when you let your heart win.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

♥ 11:01 PM

why all these heartaches?

so much of turmoil.

just chuck it, burn it;

& say what you need to say.

or maybe there's nothing to say at all :/

i swear i'm going to be super fat & ugly(then i alrdy am!) by the end of the A's luh. it seems like i'm eating everything at anytime.

but ohyes, my fasting month excited me cause i might lose weight in the process BUT, its halted for abt 1 week or so due to the consequence of being born a girl. and to the people out there who have absolutely no idea wht goes on in a muslim culture & stuff, well you know tht 'time of the month' when girls go all highly-emotional, become super sensitive & have bad mood-swings? actually when they get 'it' during the fasting month, they are not allowed to fast. interesting eh? HAHAHA. so good, we learn something new, everyday (:

and so i'm entitled to eat during the normal daily eating hours BUT in a school filled with other fasting kids and also other muslim kids in your class, its hard to chew on to anything without feeling alittle guilty & so i had to resort to pleading my friends to buy me food & secretly sneak away to a corner & stuff the foood in. trust me, it aint a fun thing to do & so i only do it when i really become super hungry. HAHAHAH.

oh & btw, sch hasnt been fun at all since it restarted. bad results and more 'lectures' from concerned teachers and not forgetting the principal & panic to search for consultation timeslots arent a big whole pool of joy. the stress & wake-up calls are pushing thru & only the toughest would be able to keep up without collapsing & believe me, i aint tht strong. but there's no time to stop & waste away our lives in emotional trauma including all the drama, no matter how tempting it may be. & i'm learning, trying to keep up & boy its hard but hey, nobody said A's was going to be a breeze so wish me luck for survival.

and this post was meant to just relieve myself & now i've to start doing maths, yes MATHS work which i promised to do by tutorial so as to not disappoint my tutor anymore.

oh and not forgetting another problem tht just happened to pop by in my life:

the attack of the swollen, puffy red eye.

yes, it's painful & i can barely stare at anything for more than half an hour BUT, i think My god is testing me and when you're faced with a challenge you just have to press on i guess. although with ALOT of whinings accompanying it too. HA. & check out the picture i tried to take of it. not a goood shot but i was trying to capture it's swollen-ness :/ although it's red-ness is not clearly seeen.

ohgosh, these pictures look HORRIBLE luh. HAHAHA. my apologies but hey if you spot me in school then you can come closer and stare at my eye IF it doesnt get better by tmrw cos i think i need sleep to let it like heal but considering the heaps or work to do, sleep isnt something i can think about now. so byeeeeeess.

when you let your heart win.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

♥ 11:59 PM

today was my Special day (:

& i think i'll let the pictures show you what happened cause i'm feeling rather lazy to type it all out.

oh btw, most of the pictures (or ALL) have been editted by me & i know my skills aint very good as i dont have the newest version of photoshop & i'm still an amateur so please excuse the rather funny looking photos. heh.

BUT, the raw photos are on facebook & you can gladly go and get them there or you can ask me to send it to you'll as NOT ALL the photos are in this post.

ENJOY (:

OH & WARNING!

(cos this post is rather photo-heavy it might take

ages to load so pls be patient!)

SURPRISEEEE!

THE BIRTHDAY SONG THEY SANG WAS AWESOME! (:
(esp with the additional beats and remix parts. HAHAHA)

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH YR-OLD (1)

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH YR-OLD (2)

MAKE A WISH! (:

ME AND MY CAKE (1)

ME AND MY CAKE (2)

the next picture will show you why i turned in this shot!

they smeared cake on me :/

NIGEL, RAIHAN, SHAWN, FAIZ, MARK,

PIRA, HARA, FIR, CHIAK & HAFITH! (:

THE SAME PEOPLE, ACTING CUTE!

HAHAHA (:

2A04! (:

MY CLASSSS AGAIN! (:

(with 2 extras ofcourse. HAHA)

AMIRA, PRIYA AND FIFA! (:

AGAINNN! (:

GUANJIE, KAIFENG, DARIAN, TIMOTHY, TIMO,

SAM, BEN, DENGYAO, JARED & JEROME! (:

AGAINNNN! (:

SANJIV, PIRA, PRIYA, SHAH,

HARA BESTIEE & GANESH! (:

JERRY, AMIRA, CS, FIFA,

XC, PRIYA & ALVIN! (:

SAM, JAKE, ESTRINA,

HP, ALAN & CONST! (:

LYD & STEPH! (:

(i have no idea where JO disappeared to :/ but this applies to all three of them. these three wonderful people are the ones who help to maintain my normal high & crazy self in class and they def keep my hyped up but pretty sane. HAHAHA. LOVE YOU'LL LOADS no matter what & i'm so glad i have you'll. thanks for being a super great help to my party toooo!)

my dearest FIFAAAAAAA! (:

(gosh, fifa thanks for being a super great help at my party

& you know i'll always LOVE YOU LOADS

cause you're one of my closest frens & even though exams

& busy schedules has kept us apart,

i cant wait for aft A's so that i can spent more time tgther & have fun with you. & this applies to amira tooo

who i unfortunately couldnt take photo with

cos she left early. so yeah,

LOVE YOU'LL BOTH LOADS & LOADS! )

FIFA AGAINNNNN! (:

ALANNN! (:

(omg, imy luh cos SR is soo not the same without you

and life was easier with u arnd to help me in SR. HAHA.

you've been like a super good BIG BROTHER to me,

who although annoys me,

has always been there for me.

LOVE YOU LOADS OKAY!)

HANPINNNN! (:

(you're one of the most retarded & ridiculous senior i know

but i wouldnt change you in any way.

LOVE YOU LOADS LA, HP! HAHA)

GANESHHH! (:
(gosh, you're like one of the bestest guyfriend
a girl could ever wish for
& SR aint the same without you.
imy ganesh & i'm super glad you came.
LOVE YOU LOADS OKAY!)

AGAINNNN! (:

FAIZZZ! (:

(OMG, i love you loads okay

cos you've been a great help ALWAYS,

and you're one of the nicest guyfrens i have!)

FLICK YOUR HAIR & BE A BIMBO.

HAHAHAHA (:

OMGGGZZZ!

DONT YOU THINK FAIZ & STEPH LOOK

SUPER CUTE & HILARIOUS.

HAHA (:

SHAWN WEEEEEE! (:

(mr wee, you're like a super nice brother to me

& i'll always love you loads okay! )

MR WEE AGAINNN! (:

SAYYYY CHIAK! (:

(omg, thanks for being a wonderful BBQ-BOY,

with the rest too. LOVE YA OKAY!)

MARKKKKKK! (:

(thanks for being one of the most AWESOME-EST helper

& entertainer at my party. LOVE YOU LOADSSS OKAY!)

MARCO POLO AGAINNN! haha (:

PRIYAAAAA! (:

(omg pops, you were like a GREAT help at my party luh

& i'm super greatful for it. love you always okay!)

AGAINNNNN! (:

NIGEL! (:

(gosh, he's does super funny & retarded things

most of the time. HAHA)

FIRRR! (:

(omg, he's super hilarious toooo. HAHA)

SAMMMM! (:

(one of my nicest seniors. heh.)

JAKE! (:

(omg, i lovee him cos he's hilarious. HAHA)

pretty ESTRINAAA! (:

CONST! (:

(i'm glad you moved nearer to my area. HAHA)

wonderful MONSTER! (:

this was taken to emphasize the height diff

between monster ( SHAH!) and steph.

HAHA.

my dearest PIRA-PIRA! (:

HAFITH!

(with his funnyy face. HAHA)

HIM AGAINNN! (:

THE TWO CRAZY CUCKOOS WHO PROVIDED GREAT ENTERTAINMENT AND WERE WONDERFUL HELPERS IN THE FOOD SECTION. LOVE YOU, FAIZ & MARK. YOU'LL WERE GREAT (:

this was lyd's 'brilliant' idea. HA

PS: i'm really sorry i couldnt take individual photos with the rest of the people cause i think you'll left earlier after taking the grp photos so i'm really apologetic for my party's bad planning of time & stuff but i still love ALL of you for coming & I appreciate it alot. love ya (:

when you let your heart win.